Do you remember that time when I was nine and you were eleven

and we lived in that house that always smelled like the swamp?

You and I used to drag our bikes into the backyard after school and position ourselves at the top of the hill next to the vegetable garden. We would take a moment to point out the new spiderwebs covering each other's wheels and gear shifts and violently drop the bikes if one of us ever found an egg case. Then we'd rush around looking for long twigs and once the offensive mess had been safely isolated on the top of the stick the bikes would be up-righted and I would push off, hurdling myself downwards into the trees. The ground leveled off just before the chain link fence rose up and I always cut too sharply, leaving myself sprawled on the dead leaves, soaking up their musky dampness. Then you would push off, nosily crunching leaves under your tires and I would scream at you not to hit me. Sometimes you wouldn't.

There was a tree swing too. The only one we've ever had. Jim attached it to one of the branches at a funny angle so when you pushed off and finally got a little height to your swing the whole thing would veer to the right so your fingers nearly grazed the thick bark on the way up. You'd let out a sigh of relief at the top. And on the way down you'd smack into it back first.

Past the fence was the creek. We would stand on the edge of the floating dock with a butterfly net collecting mud and mosquito fish. While you crouched down looking intently into the murky water I would creep to the other edge and with one powerful jump I could send your feet three inches into the water. You'd scream at me, furious and threatening to tattle. Of course, neither of us would ever notice that the jump sent my feet four inches deep first.

We plotted to make it to the other side of the creek. Twenty feet past the far shore rightfully belonged to us and though we could plainly see every inch of it, we were determined to make good use of all four corners and every edge of our property. When low tide came and the dock's four barrels stuck firmly in the mud we gathered up our jelly shoes and butterfly nets and headed in. I think I made it two steps before my leg suddenly sank knee deep into the fast acting mud. Naturally you jumped back to the safety of the dock and watched as I struggled to free my poor leg. You were pretty scared when I managed to get my other leg stuck and both sunk nearly waist deep. (You know, I wasn't afraid until I realized you were and that's why I started screaming for you to get dad.)

I waited in that mud for so long while you ran through the fence, up the hill, and into the house to find Dad. I was too scared to move. For one, I thought I might get sucked completely into the mud like Mario when he's too slow hopping through the level two quicksand, for another I couldn't help but imagine how furious Mom would be if I got mud all over my white shorts. I gripped the hems and pulled them as high and away from the mud as legs would permit.

When Jim came down the first thing he mentioned was the dirt on the shorts. And that's when I started crying. He could actually reach out from the edge of the dock and pull me out by the outstretched arms. That's how far out I got. When he easily extracted me the suction of the mud kept my jelly shoes and the holes where my legs had been collapsed instantly, sealing their fate. I lied and told Dad I hadn't been wearing any shoes. He then walked me up to the side of the house by the vegetable garden and used the icy hose water to clean me off before sending me inside to explain to Mom what I had done to my nice, white shorts. I don't know what you did then.

I wonder sometimes if you ever think of that creek. If you're still just as curious about what lies on the other side. Or, if after all these years you've come to your senses and know the only thing that mud kept us from was twenty more feet of dead leaves and spider webs.

Sometimes the best way to avoid an awkward situation is to run away and never look back.

I stayed up all night listening to a boy reading me scary stories online once. He’d read them to himself then summarize the best ones over AIM. He told me it was because he couldn’t sleep and for him reading was the best cure. I believed him and read every story he sent. When the night was over he asked me if I would watch the sunrise with him. I said I was too tired and instead went outside to watch the sunrise with the boy on the other end of my telephone.

He showed me his notebook when I came to class early one afternoon and was the only one in the room. I was surprised he would show me love poems. Outside of Instant Messenger I had never talked just to him and would have expected poetry to be too intimate an ice breaker. Eddy showed them to me, though, and I read them. They were awkwardly graphic. I lied when I complimented the eyes/thighs end rhyme and told him I thought he should show them to the girl they were written for. He slammed the book shut when a classmate walked in and scurried out of the room.

I forgot about the poetry until a few weeks later when he came to me with a new poem. I told him what I liked and didn’t like about it and he told me he would keep working on it. I thought that’s what he wanted. I thought that’s why he kept bringing them to me.

Valentine’s Day didn’t even occur to me when he told me he had something for me. I don’t celebrate Valentine’s Day. It’s just not my thing. I don’t celebrate Valentine’s Day, but I did that year unexpectedly when Eddy made good on a promise I had forgotten he made online late one night.

Leah and I were sitting in our usual spot outside the classroom before the bell. A few of the lockers around us were decorated for Valentine’s Day with red paper and pink balloons. Eddy hesitated next to one of these lockers before setting his jaw and coming towards us. Confused, I watched him as he came closer, picking up the pace the nearer he got until literally breaking into a run. He reached into his bag and we suddenly understood each other for the first time as he pulled out a red velvet heart-shaped box. At that point we both knew it was too late and the only thing to do was hurl the box at my feet and bolt down the hall without a word or a second glance.

I picked up the box and knew I couldn’t justify my surprise. So I slid it quietly in my bag before walking into class. Eddy came in fifteen minutes late and sat across the room facing the wall.

It was an entire year before he spoke to me again. After I left for school and had spent a few months living across the country he popped up online one night just to say a quick hello, wish me a happy Valentine’s Day, and tell me about his new girlfriend.

I realized not too long ago that works as a metaphor too

Death surrounds the world of aquarium and hobby fish retail. Anytime you put that many small creatures with an already short life expectancy into cramped quarters, rarely feed them, and chase them around their home a few times a day with a green plastic net you can probably expect a few casualties. It comes with the territory.

There are a few different deaths, varied styles, that can befall the unfortunate fish. Few of them are graceful, though I think you'd be hard pressed to find anyone who can maintain their dignity while dying publicly in a glass display case, fish or not. The closest would have to be the one-minute-you're-fine-swimming-happily-in-circles-back-and-forth-across-the-front-of-the-tank-the-next-you're-belly-up-caught-in-the-tiny-whirlpool-of-suction-as-the-filter-hums-undisturbed-below-you death. Which happens more often than you'd think.

Another quick end is death by hungry tank mate or distracted store clerk as she absentmindedly sucks you into her vacuum (while supposedly making the tank a nicer place for you to live). She'll gasp the last profanity you'll ever hear before your tiny body breaks and the two pieces of you slide down the algae colored tube into a collective vat of fish garbage.

Of course, there's also the day long fight for life where you float perpendicular to the ground at the mercy of the water's air bubble turbulence, only perking up and swimming straight when you see the green of the net hovering overhead. Maybe you'll fool them again. Buy yourself another hour or two.

Sometimes death comes from a botched escape attempt. Like when the cover is left off a tank and one of your brothers takes advantage of the rare opportunity to explore the world. You watch as he gets as far as the tile floor or maybe the next aisle over and flops helplessly around collecting bits of dirt and hair before his once glistening body dries and hardens. He waits in a dull stillness for his mind's death to catch up with his body's. Once you remember seeing this happen to a swordfish from the tank above yours. Only just seconds before the air took her over a well meaning patron scooped her up and dropped her in the tank nearest his convenience. The carnivorous cichlids finished her off before he even had the time to circle back and realize what he had done.

Diseases are bad as your eyes crust over or your gills open up in two identical gaping red sores. You're taken to the back of the store and confined to the 'hospital' tank under the pretense of quarantining, medicating, and curing you. So you stew in chemicals surrounded by strangers unrecognizable by their own grotesquities, until ultimately your disease gets the best of you, or perhaps it's one of theirs.

Or let's say you do make it and you survive. But you survive a bit too long and your season ends, like the pond fish in fall. Out comes the big black garbage bag and you pray to be one of the last to go in so you can suffocate quickly on the top while your comrades squirm beneath you loudly gasping your death through their mouths and gills while begging for their own.

When I worked at Wally's one of my favorite things was cleaning the tank where the rosies were kept. It was a huge tank in the back room filled with little whitish pink fish with red eyes used exclusively to feed more expensive fish. Rosies aren't the strongest swimmers and when I put the electric vacuum in the bottom of the tank by the time the water got to only two inches high there would be about fifty of the little fish pressed up against the blue machine's mesh underside. When I'd turn it off they would pour out excitedly. Stretching their fins and darting back and forth, touching every side of the tank before settling back down as I switched hoses and the water level once again began rising.

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I packed two cookies in my bag the morning I left Tucson. It was exactly half the remains of the batch Leah and I baked a few days earlier. I wanted to save them so I could give one to Amy when she picked me up from the airport and we could eat them together before the hour-long drive home.

My trip typically adds up to five hours on the plane and five more driving or waiting in the airports. It’s hard to sit on the airplane for those five hours with nothing to do. It’s even harder to sit there with nothing to do except not eat the two cookies you have in your bag. I did it though.

Amy called while I waited out my layover in Denver and asked me to call her when I landed in Baltimore. I did.

She told me she was on 95 south of DC (not even 1/3 of the way to the airport). I put my bags down and watched the luggage carousel as the other people from my plane collected their things. All the while laughing at myself for packing carefully so I only had carry-ons. I actually thought I’d save some time after the long flight.

Ten minutes later my mother called to tell me not to worry, Amy was on her way and I just had to be patient (and that this was all Amy’s fault because she had told her to leave at 2 and obviously Amy had not heeded the advice). Five minutes after that my dad called to say it would take at least two hours and I should start looking for alternative routes home. I said I thought I’d wait for Amy.

An hour later a man with snake skin shoes and a cell phone was edging closer so I moved up to departures and called Amy. She was crying because my mother yelled at her for missing the B/W parkway. It would be at least another hour so I pulled out my cookie and ate it while the little boy sitting next to me emptied nearly the entire contents of his Thomas the Tank suitcase before his mother noticed. I thought he deserved a cookie too.

Somewhere in the wait my dad called again and told me the next Mark train would be leaving in 45 minutes. He said if I took it to Metro Central he could pick me up when he got off work. I thought Amy would make it before then. I also thought he should have skipped the part about picking me up AFTER HE GOT OFF WORK.

Half an hour later I hopped on the bus going to the train station. I timed it perfectly so I had just enough time to buy my ticket, climb onto the train, and have it depart with minimal waiting. My dad timed it perfectly so that he could tell me Amy had just arrived at the airport and I shouldn’t buy a ticket. I stepped out of line.

It’s a five minute ride from the airport to the train station. Somewhere in that five minutes my dad’s over-the-phone directions and my sister’s nighttime driving took different paths and it was half an hour before they found each other again. The closest thing to ‘inside’ at the train station was a tiny glass room with two sliding doors and a single parking ticket booth. I waited inside with a woman who checked for the bus every 45 seconds by leaning forward towards the doors so they slid open letting what little bit of warmth I had created in the previous 45 seconds slip out. I ate Amy’s cookie and took a picture of a festive wreath while in the booth.

Amy finally made it and asked me to drive home. When we arrived my parents hugged me and pointed out the Chinese on the kitchen table before leaving for the Burks’ Christmas party. Amy and I ate dinner together before she left for her boyfriend’s house because she couldn’t “handle any more of this.”

I put my things in my room but didn’t bother to unpack. We would be leaving at six the next morning anyway to drive the ten hours to Georgia to attend a family reunion.

California steals from me

There’s something strangely deafening about the white noise of packing paper. Tonight at Topher’s house it took me three practice hands to understand the rules of a game I’ve played before. Somehow his mother’s voice couldn’t carry over the noise his father was making wrapping plates for next week’s move. I found my mind and my eyes wondering away from the piles of clubs and spades to the little red dishes. Afraid for them, I worried about their trip rather than my trumps and tricks and when she told him to throw away any he found with a chip, I became anxious that one would be left behind.

When we sat down to play I insisted I was his mother’s partner. I’m always his mother’s partner, though I seem to be the only one who remembers this. We win the first two games and best out of three quickly becomes best of five. There’s no other family I’ve found that gloats so shamelessly when they win and pouts so violently when they lay a bad hand. It’s infectious. We lose the next two. Though, in our defense, that’s when the chocolate came out (mysteriously ever-present in this house). The eight o’clock deadline didn’t stop the final game when it came down to one hand. She and I took 8 tricks to win against the odds (which is really the only way to win) and celebrated accordingly.

The old bar counter they used as a kitchen table gets carted outside in the morning for easy loading when the moving van comes. It has to wait out in the cold and the wind to find out who wins the rematch scheduled for the kitchen floor, same time tomorrow night.

It rained this morning as we opened our Christmas presents. Poured really. It finished as we did and while sitting around the kitchen table sharing pecan pie and the oranges from our stockings (of which mine was actually a grapefruit) we watched three blue jays, two cardinals, a woodpecker, four very small blackbirds, and a squirrel hopping around our small backyard. I half expected a festive holiday boarder and the words "Virginia is for Lovers" to appear above the trees.

It was a good Christmas to be at home.

It was a bad Christmas to be a worm.

Nobody likes the youngest child

We have a lot of Christmas stockings at our house.

Early on we picked up an especially homely white stocking. It’s the only one we have that’s not a lovely Christmas scene set against a deep navy blue or elegant red background. Instead of a finely decorated tree or old-fashioned Santa Claus traipsing through the snow, it has a messy pile of loud, colorful toys climbing the front. When I was 10 I fell in love with it, insisting it was mine and nobody else could use it. (And that it had to be in the center of the fireplace display at all times)

One year my mother got confused about whose stocking was whose (or, more likely, just didn’t care.) I woke up early, dumped out everything in my sister’s stocking and switched it with mine. Keep in mind my mother has always given us identical stocking stuffers and simply switching the labels would have sufficed, but it’s the principal and, to be honest, I’d probably do the same thing today.

My stocking’s gone this year. Replaced by a snowman wearing a top hat and a tasteful vest against a dark blue, star speckled sky. This happens every year but it’s the first time I’ve let my mom have her way and not fished mine out of the bottom of the box. (See I do love her) As we eat breakfast together this morning she announces she’s finally buying a full set of matching stockings and getting rid of all the old ones (mine included).

She pulls out a Lands End catalogue dog-eared in the stocking section. I give it a cursory glance and immediately circle this one.



She’s since decided to wait until next year.

Here are two poems I like

Dream Song 14
by John Berryman

Life, friends, is boring. We must not say so.
After all, the sky flashes, the great sea yearns,
we ourselves flash and yearn,
and moreover my mother told me as a boy
(repeatingly) "Ever to confess you're bored
means you have no

Inner Resources." I conclude now I have no
inner resources, because I am heavy bored.
Peoples bore me,
literature bores me, especially great literature,
Henry bores me, with his plights & gripes
as bad as Achilles,
who loves people and valiant art, which bores me.
And the tranquil hills, & gin, look like a drag
and somehow a dog
has taken itself & its tail considerably away
into the mountains or sea or sky, leaving
behind: me, wag.



and...


Praying Drunk
Andrew Hudgins

Our Father who art in heaven, I am drunk.
Again. Red wine. For which I offer thanks.
I ought to start with praise, but praise
comes hard to me. I stutter. Did I tell you
about the woman, whom I taught, in bed,
this prayer? It starts with praise; the simple form
keeps things in order. I hear from her sometimes.
Do you? And after love, when I was hungry,
I said, Make me something to eat. She yelled,
Poof! You're a casserole! - and laughed so hard
she fell out of bed. Take care of her.


Next, confession - the dreary part. At night
deer drift from the dark woods and eat my garden.
They're like enormous rats on stilts except,
of course, they're beautiful. But why? What makes
them beautiful? I haven't shot one yet.
I might. When I was twelve I'd ride my bike
out to the dump and shoot the rats. It's hard
to kill your rats, our Father. You have to use
a hollow point and hit them solidly.
A leg is not enough. The rat won't pause.
Yeep! Yeep! it screams, and scrabbles, three-legged, back
into the trash, and I would feel a little bad
to kill something that wants to live
more savagely than I do, even if
it's just a rat. My garden's vanishing.
Perhaps I'll plant more beans, though that
might mean more beautiful and hungry deer.
Who knows?

I'm sorry for the times I've driven
home past a black, enormous, twilight ridge.
Crested with mist it looked like a giant wave
about to break and sweep across the valley,
and in my loneliness and fear I've thought,
O let it come and wash the whole world clean.
Forgive me. This is my favorite sin: despair-
whose love I celebrate with wine and prayer.


Our Father, thank you for all the birds and trees,
that nature stuff. I'm grateful for good health,
food, air, some laughs, and all the other things I've never had to do
without. I have confused myself. I'm glad
there's not a rattrap large enough for deer.
While at the zoo last week, I sat and wept
when I saw one elephant insert his trunk
into another's ass, pull out a lump,
and whip it back and forth impatiently
to free the goodies hidden in the lump.
I could have let it mean most anything,
but I was stunned again at just how little
we ask for in our lives. Don't look! Don't look!
Two young nuns tried to herd their giggling
schoolkids away. Line up, they called, Let's go
and watch the monkeys in the monkey house.
I laughed and got a dirty look. Dear Lord,
we lurch from metaphor to metaphor,
which is -let it be so- a form of praying.


I'm usually asleep by now -the time
for supplication. Requests. As if I'd stayed
up late and called the radio and asked
they play a sentimental song. Embarrassed.
I want a lot of money and a woman.
And, also, I want vanishing cream. You know-
a character like Popeye rubs it on
and disappears. Although you see right through him,
he's there. He chuckles, stumbles into things,
and smoke that's clearly visible escapes
from his invisible pipe. It makesme think,
sometimes, of you. What makes me think of me
is the poor jerk who wanders out on air
and then looks down. Below his feet, he sees
eternity, and suddenly his shoes
no longer work on nothingness, and down
he goes. As I fall past, remember me.

Film 101

I've been going to all the end of the semester student film screenings here on campus because it's actually really fun to see my friends' films along with my own up on the big screen. Each of the screenings lasts a full 2 hours, packed with a few classes worth of 1-5 minute films. After going to just a couple of these screening and seeing what works and what doesn't work (over and over again) I have devised a few basic film making rules. If followed I can safely guarantee your movie will be undisputedly the greatest film ever made.
Use wisely


Rule 1:

Films should only be made about dreams or drugs. You know the shaky, blurry camera with the trailing effects, the strange objects appearing out of nowhere, the confusing stumble through the desert. It's all very very interesting.

Rule 2:

Always begin your film with somebody waking up and getting out of bed. In case we all don't know where people come from in the morning. Plus it adds believability to your character, (I sleep sometimes...he sleeps too!) Always always have an alarm clock go off.

Rule 3:

Make sure you include some kind of mysterious stranger disappearing mysteriously. This is an easy way to teach your main character about important things in life that can't be learned from everyday people. Mysterious strangers are never confusing or creepy.

Rule 4:

The crotch shot is the universal sign for leaving the scene. When somebody stands up to walk out they need to come directly towards the static camera so all we see is the fly of their jeans as it comes closer and closer.

Rule 5:

Tell all your actors to wear an Arizona sweatshirt.

Rule 6:

The only music that is acceptable in the background of a sorority girl putting on her makeup is Brittany Spears.

Rule 7:

If we see somebody open a door the shot cannot end until everybody in the audience is sure that it's been closed... completely... and locked... and that the person has walked off screen away from it. Leave no gaps and nothing to the imagination in this sequence.

Rule 8:

Be sure to write as many names into the credits under the "Thank You" heading so you can guarantee at least that many people will love your film.

Poetry Cemetery

My poetry course's final project this semester was supposed to be a visual poetry experience. In the beginning I had an elaborate plan to make an experimental film out of a poem, but as the deadline drew near (the night before) I quickly realized that was no longer an option.

Not wanting to write a while new poem, since the film one was no longer applicable, I decided that I would just use lines from old, unfinished pieces. Borrowing the Softer World photo comic format (basically directly copying the entire style), I made a bunch of these titling it Poetry Cemetery: A Visual Collection of Unrealized Potential.

This is my favorite

"Lizard"


"Home Town"


"Glass Eye"

Going away for the weekend

Better make sure everything



is in its place.

Arizona Loves Tool

Well, I start another job tomorrow.

Pretty damn exciting.


My life is saturated in group work right now.

For one of my projects we need to create a storyboard for a single scene from a feature, also of our creation. One of the girls in the group panics Friday morning last week and insists we all meet THAT NIGHT. She sends out about a hundred emails and sets the time for six o'clock.

Six rolls around and I'm outside the library. Five minutes later I am joined by this kid Mike. He and I stand around and bitch about group work while we wait (well, mostly he bitches and I wonder out loud when we can go home.) In our time together Mike basically tells me that he hates group work because he's so much smarter than everyone else and always gets suck doing all the work. I make a note to myself to secretly hate Mike for this and after half an hour we eventually give up and go home.

On Sunday I get an email from Mike and the girl (Casey) stating that they have written the plot summary for the movie. In the half hour we had together back at the library one of us made the joke that we should save time and make the project right then. The premise would be good group members waiting impatiently for bad group members. It was actually kind of funny AT THE TIME. So the plot summary arrives (after a secret Mike/Casey meeting) and low and behold that's exactly the film we are supposed to be making.
Jesus.

Monday in class I make a big fuss about how bad the story is and announce that I will rewrite it myself. Placing most of the blame on Mike for the lazy construction of the assignment, I make him the main character. I deliberately turned it into a kind of Portrait of the Artist written vicariously. I give Mike a huge ego in the story, rename him Steve, and have him try to sabotage his group to prove to his teacher that group work is worthless.

The film was intended to make fun of Mike in a not so subtle manner. Unfortunately, however, I put in a minor part taken from my real life. There was one point at the beginning of the semester when I was talking with my prof in his office hours and I mentioned a few of my fellow students not by their names (which I didn't know), but by the nicknames I quietly laugh to myself about in class. In the story Steve does the same thing though, as a lesson, the teacher makes those particular classmates his group.
Anyway, my prof caught this instantly and, mixed with the obvious this-is-about-someone-in-this-group autobiographical approach, automatically assumed it was about me. So basically, I wrote an entire scathing story making fun of MYSELF.
Nice.

Oh ew.

Two drunk guys came in last night (surprising, I know) and told me I could either call them a cab or take the $100 they were offering to have me drive them back to their hotel in my own car.

I'm still deciding if I am completely horrified or a bit insulted by the measly $100 offer.



(I called the cab, by the way, and was left with $25 and a request to never change.)

We finished closing the store around 4 this morning and Nick and I were standing outside talking while the street cleaner circled the parking lot. After a while we both noticed the smell of smoke and large plumes billowing about. Last week we noticed the same thing and on the drive to Ihop we passed by the Mattress store completely engulfed in flames. Tonight, naturally, we were a little concerned and decided to investigate a bit. I got about 20 feet from where we were standing and realized that the mulch under the bushes by the sidewalk was burning. There was a growing black circle where it had turned to ash and every once in a while a little flame would leap up.

Nick and I looked at it for a while and the street cleaner came by to see what the deal was. He told us we should run inside to get water to put the fire out before driving away. Nick and I thought about it for a minute before getting in our cars and driving away too.

If Maleks, Mcdonalds, CVS, Giant, and Chicken Out aren't there in the morning it's completely my fault.

Friday night I had to work with incompetent Erin at the restaurant. The girl cannot seem to do anything by her self no matter how simple and one person job-ish it may seem. Not to mention everything she touches somehow manages to turn to complete confusion and she insists on touching EVERYTHING.

After a long hard night of dealing with her and maintaining a constant state of slight to major panic because I cant keep track of anything and never know whats going on thanks to her meddling all I want to do is count the money, credit cards, and take the driver's money and get the hell out of there. I stared at the daunting pile of important papers, unorganized because I was busy all night and erin was nothing if not a hindrance to the working process, and Erin came up to me.

"Um, do you think you could do the mopping tonight?"
"No."
"Well, I did all the other side work and really hate mopping."
"No, all the side work is your job and so is mopping."
"It's just that I have to mop, like, every night. I'm sick of it."
(Here is when I get a little outraged)
"You work 2 days a week, I work six. I mop every night. Go fucking mop."

That's about how all of our conversations go.

Anyways, after the long night I did my share of complaining to my coworkers and friends about how much I hate her and how she only makes my life harder and how I would rather do the job all by myself than have her around.

Tonight I went in scheduled to work with her again. When I got there she was nowhere to be found. My boss told me she had a seizure and wouldn't be coming in tonight so I'm the only one.

I expect that this has cemented my eternity in hell.

Saturday

My boss does Bible dips.

Monday

Discover crazy lady's name is Athena Smith. She tells me she is 13 and keeps it a secret from her dad how much money she spends on food.

She takes a liking to the new boy, Nate and asks him what time he gets off work. Nate turns red.

Sings for cash in the smoking section but doesn't get paid so she storms out. Other customers chase after her hoping for a picture. She escapes.

Fat boy comes in. Asks whats good and I tell him the greek sandwiches. He asks if I'm greek. When I tell him I am not he says, "Good, I can't stand those people."

Sunday

The crazy woman is back again tonight. She has a new wig. Sits next to creepy guy who comes in every night and pays for his coffee after he gives her his phone number because "Nothing in this life is free."

Am hoping for true love and their first date to be at Maleks.


"Do you like vodka or amaretto?"